Abotion is Murder...

Some may feel its the only way out, Have they ever thought about adoption?

A condom? The pill ? There is no need to kill these babies everyday, just because you had a night of fun and created a baby then realized, you are not ready to be a mom? Well ur unborn child is not ready to be murdered. Look at some videos and pic that show how evil and cruel abortions are, Maybe your mom wasnt ready to be a mom, but she didnt kill you.

So i feel no pity on anyone for doing this to babies, I hope you get older and suffer with your painful thoughts of the murder you done. Because after all it didnt make you un-pregnant...It makes you a mother to a dead child... Most doctors who preform abortions are men, so they fight for it, well guess what they will never be pregnant, to feel how it is with a life inside you. Then to rip it out in a cruel fashion...

Being a mom is hard, But in the long run its very rewarding everyday, So if only you would give it a chance, Its alot better than murdering your child... Thats not rewarding !!!

Thats pure EVIL !!!!!

And to think this happens everyday !!!

There are thousands of woman who do this everyday like its a dinner date, They walk in, sign in, kill an innocent child, " who did not ask for this" Then walk out like nothing ever happen, And i bet they did not even think to ask for birth control, so that this never happens again... Yet there is woman like myself who would love to have the chance to have another child... So we complain about terroist??? WTF?? Us americans are killing thousands a day !!!

This really does not say much for saving a life... Some may look at it as they are nothing since not born yet, but they have a heartbeat, fingernails, hair, Dammit !!!! They are somebody they are babies.... How can we do this?? Even if you think its the only way out? There is someone who would love to care for that child... You know what a better way out would be?? Get freaking birth control and stop killing innocent babies !!!!!

Infertility....

They truley are a gift from god !!! Although i wonder when god will hear all my prayers for one more gift... Im not selfish by asking, I am mearly just hoping...

Another Day...

Well let's see how today goes as far as the pain, Last night i hurt alot, My legs felt as if they were going to fall off... I mean why so much pain? I just want to be normal again... What is normal?

Normal would be a day without pain, to walk to the bathroom without feeling like i walked a mile, To not have to sit everyfew minutes, to be able to get out more often again.... Normal as in will this shit just go away......

I hate that damn medicine and frankly, I am very happy not to have to take it ever again, So off to work i go, let's hope it's a better day....

I can't do surgery for another 2 weeks, So i am in the waiting game..... I hate waiting !!! Who would have thought i would have this much trouble to have a baby !!!!

Infertility?? The nightmare of meds !!!

I decided to go to the doctor and tell her i want another baby, You would think you could just have sex and bam a baby, well no its that that easy when your in your 30's.. Who would have thought you needed to have all the kids you want in your 20's ? Them fertile bitches...(joking)

Anyway, so she sends me to take a test called a hsg..They stick a tube attached to a medal rod in your uterus to your tubes then push dye through to see if your tubes are open...Ouch, that damn thing hurts....I was unable to walk without pain for over a week... So i called they said its all normal...Test was clear and my tubes are open....

I was told you can get preg easier now...So i baby dance alot that month in hopes of this being my lucky month...Nope...

So i call her for another appt, I told her still no luck, she gives me some pills called clomid... To induce ovulation, she says this will do the trick go home baby dance alot and call me if you start.. or take a preg test if you dont...umm duh a no brainer...

Well, when i took the meds which was on cycle day 5-9, I was happy at first thinking man this is gonna be my lucky month, Well instead i got hot flashes, nausea, pain from hell, bloated, i felt like a stuffed thanksgiving turkey..

I called the office to tell them about the pain, they said o it's normal it means the pills are working.. I said maybe i have cyst from the meds? ( which is a bad side affect of them) can you give me a ultrasound? She says no your fine, just call me for more meds if you strat your period.. So i waited a few more days and the pain got worse...

I wasnt calling her back so i went to my regular doc, not the obgyn again, I told him i had been on the meds and the pain is very bad, he done some test and oredered a ct scan of my stomach, i ask him to for a ultrasound, no he said go get the ct scan, so i go to the hospital to get the scan, i called them the next day for my results, they said all was fine and clear, so i said would that have shown if i had cyst from the meds? She said yes but there was nothing there all is ok...

So where in the hell is my pain comming from? I mean i feel like i have watermelons in my ovaries... WTF???? I dont take their word for it either, cause i know my body and it freaking hurts...

Then i called a RE doctor a specialist.... I told them about the pain, and the meds i was on and said its almost time to take them again and im scared someting may be wrong.... I go in for my appt...They are smart !!!! They say well, i think we need to do a ultrasound!!!! Wow i have been asking for one of those for weeks !!!

After the ultrasound i found out the meds gave me ohss...which means my tubes and ovaries are swollen and i have now got cyst on both ovaries, along with blood in my stomach.... All from the magic baby pill my obgyn gave me.....

Now instead of getting lucky i get to have surgery to cure all of this mess the meds created, how fun is this shit...Let me tell you its hell, i have constant pain, bloated and not to mention the 10 pounds i put on from the ohss and the meds....Great !!!

I could have smacked the hell out of both doctors who told me i was fine, to just go home and rest....Rest my ass i hurt !!!! Pain i mean PAIN!!!!!!

Oh and if i would have listened to them and took the meds again, guess what? I would have ended up with no ovaries!!!! How freaking pregnant can i get with no ovaries???


So always listen to your own bodies pain not always the doctor they are not always right !!!!